A while ago, in an unusually introspective moment, I made an aspirational thought board. My thought board is like a little collection of life lesson bumper stickers. Soundbites. Wisdom in easily digestible pieces. It's also kinda vague. I haven't really looked at my thought board in a while. I made it as a touchstone of sorts and then- I promptly lost touch with it. It was tucked in a niche in my meditation space; a space I haven't been in much lately.
Ah. Now comes the point in the conversation where I explain how crazy my past year has been. I must plead stress, exhaustion, the sheer mental madness of living my life. Where I explain dropping out of life with the blanket "I've been SO busy..."
I've. Been. So. Busy. How many times do we use this flimsy excuse to not live fully? To not connect, to not engage, to not Just. Sit. And. Think. I didn't call when you were going through that rough patch- because I've been so busy. I haven't sent you a letter, a card or even a 3-line email- because I've been so busy. I haven't exercised- because I've been so busy.
I'm saying this with the full realization of what it feels like to think that you really don't have one extra minute in your day for anything. I'm typing this while the not-so-distant memory of desperately needing to clone myself lurks in my psyche. It's a very real feeling- overwhelming, all-consuming. It's also a BIG FAT LIE- that we perpetuate every single day.
Looking at this thought board really made me think about the way I set goals- too big, too lofty, not enough working pieces. No wonder I feel overwhelmed. It also made me think about the way I process information.
1. Take it all in.
2. Panic, wail, gnash teeth, rend garments.
3. Get talked off ledge by someone wiser or saner.
4. Think wiser, saner person is totally whacked.
5. Break everything into smaller, digestible chunks.
6. Feel like idiot for being so hysterical.
I need to look at my thought board a little differently. As a board of individual, actionable affirmations. We all have time to do one more thing everyday. We all have time to lift one person up. To return that phone call. To send that "thinking of you" email. To ask, sincerely, how someone is doing. To exercise. To stop and listen.
I'll leave you with one thought from my board that hopefully will inspire you like it inspired me-
"Most transformational moments involve a sequence of intense effort, frustration, and then letting go"
So, this is transformational? Right?
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